Mood: Confused
Song of Choice:"If I am" by Nine Days
Topic: The Blushing Maiden and the Porno King

Okay guys time for a change of pace no dreams lets try reality for one entry.

Okay I wear this rainbow dog leash thing aroung my waist that hangs down past my knee right okay I do it just to have some colors and a small reminder of Peter because I know he thinks about me just as much as i do him, Well for some reason guys like to grab it and try to lead me around which doesn't work and usually gets them a swift beating as expected.

Some guys I let play with it the leash like Dan, my geek friend, and Josh, the Porno King--mind you I never really put thought to it but I just let them.

Well today Josh grabbed the leash Mr I wanna be sneaky like I wouldn't notice. So I turned around and was walking backwards and he was talking to one of his friends and then he notices that I'm lookin at him. so I pull my leashto get it away from him and he pulls it harder and well walking backwards it threw me into him.

Then it was this surreal moment where he kinda just held me there and then he moved his face foreward and I know I must have had that stupid shocked blushing innocent girl what are you going to do (like Momiji and Kusenagi) look on my face because he let me go all of a sudden.

I realy had no clue what to do and I guess neither did he..so we kinda kept walkin and started talking about something else and acted like nothing happened.

The thing is I don't know how to interpret it. I mean for the love of GOD this guy IS the Porn King and he's notorious for making out with girls and what have you. AND he's a druggie and whatever and all this other stuff. Besides what if was only a second thing and my mind only made it seem like a while?

I don't know what to do I think my game plan will be to act like nothing happened...I mean yeah that's the best thing to do right? I need affirmation guys!! Help me out!